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Author: Kathleen

  • One Year

    Yesterday David and I, as a couple, turned one. It was the anniversary of our first date. We had decided not to spend much money on gifts, because we just had Christmas, both of our birthdays are around this time, and Valentine’s Day is coming up as well. But when I first saw him at church, he had these for me, along with a really sweet card:

    Roses

    (There are twelve of them.) We spent the afternoon together doing some romantic things that I loved and may talk about at a later date. But for now I will just say that we decided that our next dog will be an English Bulldog named Cobbler. :)

    In the evening we went back to the restaurant where we had our first date, The Melting Pot. It’s a delicious fondue place. Really comfortable, private, romantic, and fun. When we got to our table there were more roses waiting for me, and they took our picture and framed it for us:

    Melting Pot

    Then I gave him the gift I made for him, which was a mix CD of all the songs that really remind me of him for one reason or another. I made a case for it, and a booklet to go inside. In the booklet I wrote down excerpts from my journal of when we first were getting together, through our first kiss, and the first time we said “I love you.” He loved it, and I was glad because I actually spent a lot of hours on it!

    CD Case

    CD Booklet

    What can I say, I love him!

  • I Heart Weekends

    Whew. I am ex.haus.ted. It has been some week! It has been awhile since I looked forward to the weekend this much. I feel like I’ve been gone all week, driving all over the city from place to place, never home for more than 30 minutes at a time unless it’s to sleep. I have about two hours now before I have to leave again, and I am just loving it. Even though I surely have schoolwork that I need to do, I am instead going to begin working on the anniversary present I’m making for David, spend some quality time with Cleo, and maybe even get a tiny nap in. Ahh.

    I should mention that my friend and I reconciled, which took a lot of stress off me. Although I am still worried about her, at least there isn’t the tension between us that there was before, and since I see her a LOT that makes a huge difference in my life.

    Also, we were able to sell our entry for the Texas Independence Relay to another team. So even though we don’t get to run it, at least we will get our money back. I am disappointed that it didn’t work out like I wanted it to from the beginning, but we had so many team members drop out recently that I just wasn’t going to be able to put a full team together and manage it with only a month to go until the race. So this solution is really the best one given the circumstances. (Thanks, Katy, for pulling this off! I hope that we can do another race together in the future…something not quite so stressful!) I’m going to try to keep running, but for now at my leisure. It does make me feel good, and I hope to run some interesting races in the future, but maybe once I get out of school and have more time to train.

    Anyway, my point is that I’m in a lot better mood now than I was at the beginning of the week. Now it’s time to relax!

  • bad and good

    The bad:

    >The aforementioned friendship troubles. No updates there yet.
    >The relay team that I’m supposed to be in charge of is falling apart.
    >Finding time to fit in class, work, clinical, studying, soccer games, book club, applying for jobs, running, and relationships.

    The good:

    >I love David, and he loves me. Our one-year anniversary is on Sunday.
    >Being a nurse is great, and so is my clinical in the surgical ICU.
    >Things to look forward to: anniversary, birthday, Over the Rhine concert, Valentine’s Day.
    >Cleo is the best dog ever, and I am her favorite person of all.

    Just a quick update because I don’t have much time this week.

  • trying to respond

    I am such an avoider of conflict. It’s really not that great of a characteristic. I am having a very hard time dealing with this situation with my friend. The conflict was thrust upon me, and now I have to respond. The last time we spoke I wasn’t prepared, and things were left in a bad place. Since I didn’t know when I would see her again, I ended up leaving her a letter to read. It was honest and at the same time caring, but I’m worried that she will just see it as judgment and intolerance and miss the love. I’m doing what I can, but it’s hard.

    In other news, I have my first clinical tomorrow. A 12 1/2 hour shift in the surgical ICU. It’s going to be a long day. I hope I like it.

    And finally, for a break from this melancholy, check out my good friend Carmen’s video blog, One Leg Duck. This week I am a featured character, filmed on our recent trip to New Mexico. It’s a silly short little thing.

  • troubled

    What do you do when one of your oldest, closest friends starts acting in a way that doesn’t fit her at all, disrespects your friendship by being deliberately deceitful to you about it, and shows no remorse for anything? My first instinct is to avoid this person and have as little to do with her as possible. I know that’s not very loving, and I need to be there for her. But I really don’t know how to reach out right now.