Category: personal

I woke up at 4:45 a.m. and got home at 5 p.m., and all I’m thinking at this moment is that my legs and feet are very tired.

Today I met my preceptor, Christy, and basically followed her around the entire day. She is extremely nice, but I don’t think she quite understands the concept that I am an RN with a license (yay!) and I can actually do stuff. It wasn’t until the end of the day, when she was getting behind, that I finally told her, “You know if you need help with anything I can do something for you.” She said, “You can give meds?” Um…yeah, I’ve been doing that since the second semester of nursing school!

She won’t be my only preceptor, because she doesn’t work every day. But I really liked the unit and the people, and I’m sure I will love it once I get more involved and obtain more autonomy. I already requested my vacation days (August 1-3 for my good friend Ellen’s wedding in Kansas, and of course October 3-12!), I have my own locker with a lock and my name on it, and I know all the secret codes. I just need to get my hands dirty!

P.S. I promise that all my posts won’t have to do with nursing from now on!

Although I thought the test went well, I was still so nervous to check the results. A thousand scenarios had developed in mind around how I would react if I failed. I am very grateful that I don’t have to find out. I’m an RN!

If I hadn’t passed, I think I would have been overcome with stress. I might have had an aneurysm. Because I start on my unit next week, and first of all, how embarrassing to have to go back and tell my manager that she hired the nurse who couldn’t pass the board exam. Secondly, I have to move by the end of the month, which is in about two weeks, and that includes repainting my room. Third, I get married in what? Three and a half months??? I only have to put together practically the entire wedding in that amount of time. If I had to worry about studying for and passing the NCLEX in another 45 days…I don’t even want to think about it. But I don’t! I passed!

Just a simple, unassuming door, right? Who could guess what evil lies inside.

I couldn’t sleep last night. I was in bed at 9:30 p.m. but I just tossed and turned. I guess I finally drifted off eventually, but I was awoken at 3 a.m. by Teak and Riley, who I am pet-sitting, because they had to go outside. Then my alarm went off seemingly ages later at 5 a.m. I was restless, so I got out of bed right away. As I was getting ready I kept thinking, “I can’t believe I’m going to take this test today.” I was so nervous my stomach was doing flips. I can’t remember the last time I was that nervous about anything.

I got to the testing center half an hour early. My car was the only one in the parking lot.

So I went and sat on a bench outside of the building, and just tried to calm myself down mentally.

After a few minutes my friend Lauren walked up, and we talked until it was time to go in the building. We had to wait until exactly 7:30 a.m. before they would let us in the suite. We each took a number, and that was the order we were checked in. I took number 3. I showed them my ID, my authorization to test, signed a signature pad, had my picture taken, and was fingerprinted. I put all of my stuff in a locker, except a sweater that they let me take in. Then I was given a dry erase board and a set of earplugs and was led to a little cubicle. I ran through a tutorial of how the test would be given, and then my first question popped up.

I’m not allowed to talk about the exact questions I got, but I do know that I got 6 questions about pediatrics, 2 about OB, 9 regarding specific drugs, 1 calculation, and 14 “alternate item” questions that were “select all that apply” rather than multiple choice. The rest were mainly a mixture of med-surg, delegation, and teaching questions. I had 75 questions total, the minimum amount. It took me an hour and a half.

My impression? It was hard. REALLY hard. If it were a test in nursing school I would be extremely upset and just know I failed. BUT, the NCLEX is not scored on a percentage; you just have to get more right than wrong. It was very similar to the practice tests I had been taking, and I passed all of those. So, I honestly feel pretty good about it.

The results will be ready for me to view on Friday, but I will be at work. I could check them there, but if I happen to fail that would be extremely embarrassing because everyone in my orientation group will ask me about it. So I’ve decided that I’m going to wait until I get home that evening and I’m with my fiance David to check it. I want to be with him either way it turns out.

I feel exhausted for one, and a little numb to it all. I also feel apprehensive, because I can’t quite relax yet. But it’s nice to have the rest of the day off. After I finished the test I immediately went to get a manicure and pedicure. Then I met David for lunch, and now I’m going to take a short nap before going to meet David again for dinner and a movie.

If you prayed, thank you. I can’t tell you how much it comforted me to think about all the people that were praying for me. Now if you could just pray for two more days until I find out my results, that would be great!