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First. I have this thing with symmetry. It’s kind of like an OCD tendency. It expresses itself in many different ways, like if I’m walking and my right foot scuffs the ground I don’t feel right until my left foot scuffs the ground too. I have these urges all the time, but for the most part I can resist them. The one area I never resist, though, is with eating. I must have the same amount of food, texture, and taste on both sides of my mouth. I’m very adept at it by now, so that it is almost an unconscious act. Second. I was in a play in college. It was called The Dining Room and it was a…
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I’m out of my slump, I think! Wahoo! Let’s go November, bring us some fall weather will you? Current Book(s): I told David he could pick out a book for me to read, and that always means true crime. In this genre, the well-written books are excellent and fascinating, and the bad books are just terrible. David reads everything. It works out because he pre-screens them for me and I only read the best ones. (Some past favorites: In Cold Blood, The Stranger Beside Me, and And the Sea Will Tell.) So right now I’m reading Columbine by Dave Cullen, which he spent ten years researching. It’s so interesting. Current Playlist: The song that’s playing right this moment is “Ramona”…
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So I’ve talked a little bit about how my diet right now is pretty restrictive. No gluten, no meat for the most part, and trying to avoid dairy. When I first started this, people would ask me, “What are you going to eat?” A month later and I realize what they meant. It’s a particularly difficult diet for me since I hardly ever cook. If I’m not comfortable cooking normal food on a regular basis, how am I supposed to jump right in to specialty meals? Well, I’m working on it. Slowly. But in the meantime I need some nutrition! After one particularly discouraging day where I hardly ate anything and had an emotional breakdown, David took it upon himself…
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I work with a lady who I like to call Super Nurse. In addition to her full-time job in patient care on our unit, she is also in school to advance her degree. She is the chair of about a thousand committees. She is constantly conducting employee inservices and creating educational posters for the rest of us. She does research projects to figure out the best patient care. She plans all our parties. For a long time, I thought I wanted to be just like her. But then this year happened. We had a miscarriage, David dealt with debilitating pain and got both of his hips replaced, I developed food intolerances, and sunk into depression. My job, in which I…
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In order to lighten the mood around here, and to make it seem a little less like a self-help website, here are some things that have been inspiring me, exciting me, and making me happy lately. Planning epic road trips David and I decided that even though we are on a fast track to pay off our debt and save money by making tons of sacrifices financially, for our mental health we want to have vacations to look forward to. We’ve been putting away a little each month and will continue to do so until next summer when we hope to be able to take our trip. Our plan is to drive from here all the way up the Pacific…
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