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  • quick takes

    Linking up for randomness again today.

    One

    In my last post I was humblebragging about what a nice evening we had as a family and then the last two nights have paid me back. The toddler fussiness has increased throughout the week, and last night I just had to abandon my feeble attempts at cooking dinner to feed her snacks and go on a walk just to get her out of the house and be quiet. She had cheese puffs and a popsicle for dinner, so what? I was so tired afterwards that I didn’t eat anything myself and just went to bed.

    Two

    Had this convo with my mom today:

    mom convo

    I really appreciate how seriously she takes my needs.

    Three

    I can’t help myself so I’m starting to think about baby names. I’m trying to wait to get serious about it until we know the sex (less than two weeks!) but it’s already stressing me out. Tell me, what are you favorite names? If you are saving them for your own children and don’t want to share, what are your favorite names that you can’t use for whatever reason? My husband has already vetoed several of my options (like Alexander for a boy…he thinks it’s too girly, I don’t know, and Nora for a girl because of this girl who was obsessed with him in high school, or so he says).

    Four

    I rarely use Pinterest just to browse, but I do use it to collect and organize ideas and inspiration. Lately, though, I’ve been getting an inordinate amount of pleasure out of curating the boards I follow. When I first signed up I just followed everyone’s boards that I knew and that was a mistake. I realized that when I browse I don’t want to see recipes or workout tips or quotes or photography. I basically just want to see home design, style, crafts, & DIY. Oh, and cute animals. If I want to see those other things I will specifically search for them. Who are your favorite pinners? I need to do a roundup of mine.

    Five

    In church last week when I picked up Meredith from Sunday school they were all wearing outfits like this, holding hands and walking in a circle singing a song. They made the armor of God and it was the cutest thing ever. So I guess I forgive her for last night after all.

    armor

  • around here // tuesday night

    breakfast

    project life

    window

    quilt

    jessie

    nursery time

    me and m

    Last night was a normal night at home, but a pretty good one. I got home a little early, before David brought Meredith home which was kind of nice because I had a chance to get things tidied up (before they got messed up again) and a few things done quickly. I put together a batch of breakfast sandwiches to freeze for the rest of the week, then sat down to check out the state of Project Life. Right now I’m trying to put together the spread for July and I have the photos in place but I need to do the journaling and add the extras. I’ve decided that this monthly spread approach is not working for me because it gets SO overwhelming to catch up on and I lose a lot of little details. Hoping to get back to bi-weekly spreads soon.

    My succulents sit in my kitchen window and are looking good. One day I will get around to adding more houseplants to my collection but for now we’re still in save money mode. The stacks of triangles are my quilt pieces. Progress on this has been sadly stalled for months. I have tried twice to start piecing them together but both times I’ve had difficulties with bunching up. I need a longer stretch of time to dedicate to figuring out the best way to do it. Either that or I need someone to come over and tutor me in sewing. Any takers?

    When David and Meredith got home it was a flurry of happy activity. David cooked dinner while I finished up my breakfast sandwiches and Meredith ate a snack and played with the dogs. When I finished we went to the couch to watch her favorite TV show Jessie on Netflix. In the photo she is a blur because whenever the theme song comes on she jumps up and down and dances. It’s the best. Oh, and her pants and diaper had already been removed. I’ve just resorted to telling her not to pee and hope for the best.

    After dinner we moved into Meredith’s room for some quieter play which usually involves reading all of the books. (I love that she loves books but I admit I am looking forward to when we can read storybooks or chapter books rather than The Belly Button Book, Nursery Rhymes, and Goodnight Moon over and over and over again. And those are the best ones.) Then she wanted to take a “peeshur” with me so I happily obliged. :) And thankfully the bedtime routine and going-to-sleep were only accompanied by a few cries and protests so I’m calling it a win all around.

  • book club : flight behavior by barbara kingsolver

    My monthly book club meetings are mostly just me and one of my friends, although occasionally attended by some other peeps, and we constantly reach out to other friends but no one else has seemed to stick. I do wish it were a little bigger and more formal, but I still like it as-is because I get to catch up with my friend who I otherwise probably wouldn’t see much, and we still choose books which gives us something to talk about and I usually end up reading something I otherwise wouldn’t have.

    I try really hard to finish the book on time because it’s a great incentive to finishing, and also in seven years I have never NOT finished a book so my streak is very built up in my mind. Anyway, I’m glad I had the incentive this time because otherwise I probably would have abandoned Flight Behavior by Barbara Kingsolver.

    flight behavior

    First let’s talk about the good things. Barbara Kingsolver. I am a fan of hers. The Poisonwood Bible is still one of my faves and Animal, Vegetable, Miracle was an inspiring and enlightening food memoir (mostly) about eating local. So I knew I loved her writing and it’s the reason I agreed to read this book even though it seemed kind of boring from the description. The plus is that the writing is still awesome. Character development, awesome. Sense of atmosphere, clear setting, movement of the story even though not a whole lot happened – all that is definitely there. And there’s a ton of symbolism and literary stuff going on if you like that kind of thing. I do like it, and appreciated it, even though I didn’t take the time to fully mull it over or analyze it.

    Now here’s the reason I only gave this book two out of five stars: it got preachy like whoa. I expect that (to an extent) in a memoir, but I do NOT like it in my fiction, no thank you. I am pro having a moral or a message in a story or in the background, but in this book there is a CLEAR agenda and at times I felt like I was in a classroom or in environmental church, if that was a thing.

    Okay, so I didn’t know the book was about climate change until I had it in my hands and read the inside flap, and I was kind of turned off from the beginning. Now let me say that I am aware of the big problem that is climate change even though I don’t keep up to date with the science, and I avoid politically charged stuff because I hate controversy, and although I guess I understand why it’s controversial (money, etc) I figure that not only is it common sense to take care of the earth, there are plenty of Biblical reasons to do so as well. It’s just the right thing to do, so I try to. I fail a lot, but baby steps, you know? All that to say I’m pretty on board with Kingsolver’s message and I was still turned off by the idea of a whole fiction book about climate change.

    This is what she does. There is a main character, Dellarobia, who is a poverty-stricken lady stuck in a marriage (and family, by extension, since she has no family of her own) and a life situation that she never intended to be in, even though she acknowledges that it is of her own making and good things have come of it. She is for the most part ignorant about the wider world apart from her small town in Appalachia. She discovers this phenomenon of an enormous colony of monarch butterflies that have changed their migration from Mexico to her family’s farmland, and at first she is just inspired and overwhelmed by its beauty and it causes her to want to be a better wife/mother/daughter-in-law/etc.

    So THEN a scientist shows up to study the butterflies by name of Ovid Byron, and he is extremely likable and caring and earnest and sympathetic to the reader. Dellarobia practically falls in love with him and we are meant to, also. So Ovid Byron becomes Barbara Kingsolver’s mouthpiece for her message, and Dellarobia is the willing audience, soaking it all up and learning and changing for the better. It was pretty obvious. There were huge chunks of conversations about ecology and why it was all such a big deal, and I just got tired of it. Plus there was a lot of descriptions of farming and maybe it’s just because I’ve been addicted to the Game of Thrones books lately which are the opposite of this, but I was so ready for it to be done.

    And then I was done, and because she’s such a good writer I still had an emotional response and felt sad and hopeful at the same time. And a lot of people really like it, so. Do with that what you will.

  • quick takes / 16 weeks

    I’m trying out the seven quick takes linkup today since it’s an excuse to just post random stuff, which is what I’m doing lately anyway. Not sure if I’ll always have seven though, so let’s just skip that part.

    One

    I’m 16 weeks along in this pregnancy and I had a doctor’s appointment yesterday. Especially in these early months before I can really feel the baby move I always get a little nervous before checkups. Yesterday about gave me a panic attack too. The experienced MA (Jen) who I LOVE is leaving the practice and so she was training a temp, and so it was just me and the temp in the room. First she starts analyzing my urine results and is staring at it for a really long time. Finally she asks me, “you haven’t been having any spotting, have you?” as if she expected something to be wrong. So already I’m worried.

    Then she moved on to checking the heartbeat. She spent a whole minute (which seemed like forever) on the right side of  my belly and there was nothing. Then she moved to the left side and immediately we heard what I knew was my heartbeat, but I could tell she was confused. Apparently the rate on the machine was jumping around and eventually she said, “okay the rate is 175 that’s very good.” But I told her I didn’t hear that rate, all I heard was my own. We then looked at the machine together and the rate was mostly in the 80’s. No matter what she did we could not hear a baby heartbeat. Internally I was partly freaking out / partly preparing myself for terrible news & trying to be at peace with that / partly trying to convince myself it was just because she’s new. Finally after a million years Jen came in the room and immediately found the baby’s heartbeat, in the 140’s. Then she showed the temp how to do an ultrasound in case she’s having trouble finding the heartbeat and I got to see the little kid moving around like crazy and looking good. So! That was exciting.

    16 week photo:

    16 weeks

    Other than my scrubs for work I pretty much wear these shorts if I’m going out, lounge pants if I’m staying home, and a stretchy skirt (preferably maxi, but I only have two of them) to church. Choices are limited. I’m feeling great though.

    Two

    I promise all my takes won’t be as long as the last one. Anyway I made dinner again last night, so that’s twice in one week if any of you are keeping track. Huge accomplishment. I made these taco chicken bowls and I know it’s like slow cooker 101 but I was still proud that it turned out so delicious that my husband finished his bowl and my mother-in-law asked me for the recipe.

    Three

    Our house is one-story, about 2400 square feet. The front half has all real wood floors that I love, and the back half (a hallway and four bedrooms) is all nasty carpet that our dogs have torn up and stained. Pretty sure that I’ve whined and moaned about it here before, but it’s super embarrassing. So we are looking into tearing that up and replacing it. At first I thought we would just go all wood, but since I want it to look similar to the wood we already have I think that will be too expensive for us right now. So then we thought we’d do the hallway in wood and put new carpet in the bedrooms, and we’ll just keep the dogs out of there. My question for you is, have you ever put down wood floors or carpet? Where do I start looking for this stuff? What are the good companies to go to?

    Four

    I started thinking about a name for our second baby. Our anatomy scan is in three weeks so after we know the sex we’ll think about it more seriously, but I started looking at the social security website. I looked up the name “Meredith” and I was surprised to see that it keeps going down in popularity. Last year it was number 668! That’s so low. But it’s still traditional, and (in my opinion) very pretty, and it was a family name. Basically perfect. It’s going to be so hard to match that.

    Five

    I’m drinking coffee again! Like, for real! Hot coffee, in the morning. Every day. It’s sooooo great.

    Six

    I listen to a bunch of podcasts and at least four of them are book-related. This is making my “to-read” list extremely long. I truly mourn the fact that I will never be able to read everything I want to in this life. This isn’t a book blog and I know I post my quarterly round-ups of what I read, but I’m thinking of more thoroughly reviewing my monthly book club books because they aren’t necessarily things I’d pick up on my own. Will think on this.

    Seven

    Cheeks! She’s still got em.

    cheeks

  • pregnancy hormones in full effect

    So I cried at work yesterday. A lot. It was ugly. I tried to pull myself together in the bathroom but someone even came knocking on the door to make sure I was okay. And then I kept crying off and on for about an hour and just could not stop it. My mascara was gone and my eyes were puffy. I hope I didn’t scare anyone.

    The deal was, I had a rude patient. Rationally I knew that it was nothing personal to me (because I hadn’t done anything wrong and was nothing but nice) and I dug deep for sympathy and understanding because I know she is in a beyond stressful situation. Anything I told myself didn’t help though; I just kept crying. So embarrassing.

    Happy ending though! Today she emailed the doctor’s office and asked them to tell me that she thinks I’m an excellent nurse and she knows she gave me a hard time yesterday. It’s the closest to an apology I’m likely to get so I’ll take it.

    Also, last night I cooked dinner. Made BBQ beef taquitos and they were good. I also finally made the breakfast sandwiches I’d been meaning to and they were also good, so double win there. And I showered! And bathed Meredith! I am a domestic goddess!

    I need to switch subjects real quick because I am having a hard time with  my book club book, Flight Behavior by Barbara Kingsolver and I just have to talk about it. The first problem I’m having is that I’ve been reading A Clash of Kings (which is the second in the Game of Thrones series) and I’m totally addicted to it and I’m to the last hundred pages and it’s fast-paced and all I want to do is finish it. So I’m kind of resentful of any book that interrupts that right now. Also, apparently this book is about climate change, and even if I was passionate about that subject I’m skeptical that it will make for an interesting story. Currently I’m only two chapters in and there’s been a lot about the difficulties of farming and I don’t know, it’s not grabbing me. And I have to finish it by Sunday! Sigh.

    Anyway. I go to the doctor for a checkup tomorrow. Praying that all is well in the baby department.