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Reverb10: Happening Slowly and Sporadically

December 10, 2010

So, obviously I’m not doing too well with #reverb10. I’m realizing that there’s a reason I don’t post every day. Although I love my new job, I am NOT used to working five days a week with an almost two-hour commute each way. Y’all, I am so tired all the time. I’m hoping that one day I’ll be able to do more in the evenings besides feed myself and collapse, but that day has not yet arrived. There is a lot happening in my mind lately, but I lack sufficient energy to write it down. I’ve been thinking about the prompts every day, and I do intend to write about some of them when I get the chance. Maybe this…
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Reverb10: Wonder, Let Go, Make

December 6, 2010

How did you cultivate a sense of wonder in your life this year? All it takes for me to feel a sense of wonder is to go outside. I think the world is beautiful and amazing and awe-inspiring. What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why? This year I let go of my first baby. It was only a few weeks old but it was loved and wanted and grieved for. What was the last thing you made? What materials did you use? Is there something you want to make, but you need to clear some time for it? I joined a club with my mom and some of her friends, and we meet once a month…
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Reverb10: Moment

December 3, 2010

Pick one moment during which you felt most alive this year. Describe it in vivid detail. It was a couple of months ago, during the depths of my depressive episode. I was passing through days fighting off tears at every turn and just trying to make it through. I knew the kinds of things I needed to be doing to help myself, so I tried to do them. They say exercise helps with depression, if you can even get yourself to do it. So I did, at least for awhile. I went running around the neighborhood. I pulled on my shorts, tank top, socks, shoes, and a visor. It was middle afternoon and the sun was still bright. I usually…
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One Word: Suffering

December 1, 2010

Starting today, for the month of December, I’ll be participating in Reverb10, which is, according to their website, an annual event and online initiative to reflect on your year and manifest what’s next. One reason I’m doing this is because I’ve neglected to write lately, partially due to the fact that I’ve been studying for a huge test for the past month, and I think this’ll be a perfect kick start. But let’s be honest, it’s also because 2010 has been a hell of a year. I need to process it somehow. Encapsulate the year 2010 in one word. Explain why you’re choosing that word. Suffering. I wish it weren’t the case, but this has been a year characterized by…
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Today’s Success

November 24, 2010

I don’t know why, but I woke up this morning feeling very emotionally precarious. I felt like I could cry at any moment, even though absolutely nothing bad had happened. I’ve been having difficulty at work starting IV’s. I hardly ever got to practice this skill while I worked in the hospital, and now I have to do it several times a week, sometimes multiple times a day. I might be successful 50% of the time, but I don’t think it’s that much. It’s very embarrassing to keep having to ask for help with this. On my way to work this morning I prayed that I wouldn’t have to start any. It’s almost Thanksgiving, I didn’t feel well, and I…
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