my de-stressing regimen

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It’s in my nature to be productive and to pursue many different interests. I truly enjoy so many different things, am highly goal-driven, and am constantly trying to achieve more, learn more, and be involved in more. For the most part I have felt like I have things balanced and under control.

However, I’m honestly struggling as a mother lately. I don’t blame the kids at all, but my reaction to the tantrums hasn’t been good, and I have less and less patience as we go. It got to the point where I felt like I couldn’t handle it at all, and I was considering going to counseling just so that I could move past the rough spots and enjoy motherhood again.

So far, though, I haven’t had to enter therapy because I am following some advice from my mother-in-law instead: to let some things go. As much as I believe in theory that we go through seasons in life, and this is the season where I’m a working mom with young children who are my priority, my thoughts and actions don’t always align with my values. I have about twenty different hobbies (okay, at least ten) and most of them aren’t kid-friendly. So I try to work on all of them in the extremely limited time that I have alone, and when I’m not working on them they are occupying far too much brain space. Even though I don’t realize I’m doing it, I’m putting pressure on myself to accomplish all these extra things.

For example, my monthly goals. I love making them and planning for them and doing them. But most of them aren’t really necessary. I have low-level stress about achieving them and I worry about trying to fit them in. So then if the kids are giving me trouble that stress is amplified and I lose my patience and get super frustrated because my goals are being thwarted. So I’m dropping them.

I’ve made an attitude change, but also some practical changes regarding my hobbies and lifestyle that have made this possible, and I wanted to go over those here.

Blogging

I’m definitely not giving up on the blog, but I’m changing my approach a bit. There are a few features that I’m keeping: book reports, Meredith lately, and Project Life spreads. On top of that, if I finish some sort of project I will probably post about it, and then I want to do weekly-ish personal updates with photos, like the around here or currently series. And that’s it, unless I have the extra time and inspiration.

Documenting

Memory-keeping projects are important to me but are definitely something I can simplify. Starting now, I’m going to be using the Project Life app for my spreads and then printing the 12×12 layout. I think this will save a ton of time and I can do it on-the-go instead of needing dedicated time alone at home. As for any extra albums, I’m going to finish 2014’s December album (since I’m in the middle of it) and then I’m thinking of just doing photobooks for this year.

Reading

I’m in a book club that meets monthly, so I’m going to start listening to the audiobook for that (and I’m cutting back on the number of podcasts I listen to). That way any reading I do is just for pleasure.

Home Life

David is taking on some extra chores that I normally do. I’m going to simplify my meal planning and cooking; I’m still using frugal real food meal plans, but instead of trying so many new recipes I’m going to rotate our favorites and do one new one every couple weeks or so. For now, I’m not going to worry about extra decluttering or decorating unless it just happens organically.

Miscellaneous

I’m reducing the number of days I’m willing to drive to the medical center to work. Other crafts (such as needlepoint, knitting, and sewing) are just going to happen when I have spare time and really feel in the mood. In general, I’m just going to say no more.

I haven’t been exercising lately, but I feel like that’s one thing that will actually improve my mood if I do more of it. So I’m going to make an effort to start running again 2-3 times per week, right after work. I also want to go on more dates with David.

So that’s my plan, and so far I’d say it’s working. I feel a lot less internal stress and pressure, which in turn increases my patience with the kids.

What are your strategies for when you feel like you can’t handle one area of your life? I’d love to know! Tell me I’m not the only one!

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6 responses to “my de-stressing regimen”

April 29, 2015

Nora

One of my new momma friends and I were *just* talking about this last night. How we struggle with balance between our relationship, our friends, working out, projects, reading, etc. etc. Lately I’m feeling hugely overwhelmed with a lot of things, both big and small, and right now I just feel kind of lost and a little disappointed in myself to be honest. I need to let go but I really, really hard on myself. You are most definitely NOT alone. I was nodding my head reading this entire post :)

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April 29, 2015

Melissa

*Hugs* It’s hard. It’s hard, it’s hard, it’s hard!!! Wanting to be a good mom and wanting to still be “you” and trying to reach goals and just do all the things… The balance is never just right. Which I guess it won’t ever be, because that’s life.

I know we are in similar situations… two kids, jobs, husbands, and we are interested in some of the same things. So I get your desires and I have honestly been impressed with all that you’ve been doing because as you can see from my blog, I’ve not been blogging much at all. I think you’re taking the right steps in letting some things go. We can’t do it all. We just can’t! And it’s not kind to ourselves to inflict all this pressure. Do what you can and let that be enough.

You’ve got a great heart and your’e a good momma. :)

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May 1, 2015

Melanie

You’re definitely not alone! Been there, done that, doing it right now. I’ve definitely had to readjust, reorient priorities, let more things go, more than once. :) The season of motherhood has so many seasons in itself, I think. Have you read ‘Loving the Little Years’ by Rachel Jankovic? I highly recommend it! I’ve read through it several times, she just gets it and encourages moms to grow. It’s sort of written devotional style, each chapter makes a quick and insightful read for me before bed.

You’re doing a great job with your kiddos!

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May 2, 2015

brooke

it sounds like your plan is already helping you and that’s great!

what’s been helping me lately is setting up some “systems” for getting the household stuff done. having a plan for that stuff has helped me to get it done more efficiently and find more time for my own interests and hobbies. it has also helped me to relax overall and have more fun with the kids instead of continually having my brain run through the list of all the household things that i “should” be doing.

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May 4, 2015

Sarah

Oh man, I feel like I am so similar to this sometimes — I allow myself to get stressed about things that are self-induced, like craft goals or household stuff. It’s one of the reasons I chose “enough” as my one little word this year.

Oddly, for me, being pregnant and having the first trimester coincide with January-March really forced me to take a step back because I was just too exhausted to do anything else. Not that I’m recommending getting pregnant as stress relief… ;)

I appreciate your tips, actually, because I know I will be fighting the same “must do everything” feelings when second kiddo arrives, even though 2 kids I’m sure makes it even harder to find time for yourself!

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May 7, 2015

San

Since it doesn’t look like any of us are getting any more extra free time any time soon, I guess letting go is the right approach. It’s hard though: if you love to do certain things and wish you had more time to spend on it, it’s hard to just say “oh, can’t do that and will let that go”.. .because it usually does give you so much happiness and satisfaction if you spend time on it.
However, if it causes stress, we need to pick and chose and it sounds like that is what you’re doing.

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