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Starting today, for the month of December, I’ll be participating in Reverb10, which is, according to their website, an annual event and online initiative to reflect on your year and manifest what’s next. One reason I’m doing this is because I’ve neglected to write lately, partially due to the fact that I’ve been studying for a huge test for the past month, and I think this’ll be a perfect kick start. But let’s be honest, it’s also because 2010 has been a hell of a year. I need to process it somehow. Encapsulate the year 2010 in one word. Explain why you’re choosing that word. Suffering. I wish it weren’t the case, but this has been a year characterized by…
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I don’t know why, but I woke up this morning feeling very emotionally precarious. I felt like I could cry at any moment, even though absolutely nothing bad had happened. I’ve been having difficulty at work starting IV’s. I hardly ever got to practice this skill while I worked in the hospital, and now I have to do it several times a week, sometimes multiple times a day. I might be successful 50% of the time, but I don’t think it’s that much. It’s very embarrassing to keep having to ask for help with this. On my way to work this morning I prayed that I wouldn’t have to start any. It’s almost Thanksgiving, I didn’t feel well, and I…
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With colder weather here and earlier sunsets I’ve gone into a kind of hibernation. I love my job, and it’s not that stressful, but with the commute I still have to leave the house at 6 a.m. and I don’t get back until 6 p.m. By that time it’s dark and I’m worn out and I’m in bed by 8. I’m still getting used to this whole work-five-days-a-week thing. So you see that even though I have wanted to devote more time to writing here, I haven’t had much time for it. Instead I’ve opted to spend what little time I’m awake in the evenings with David, watching movies or doing puzzles. But there’s an entire weekend coming up (what…
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Now that I’ve pretty much gotten settled into my new routine, I took stock of my life and decided that there are a few things that I need to focus on in the immediate future, and here they are. Study for (and pass!) the OCN exam. This is a priority. I take the oncology certification test on November 30, and I really need to pass. First of all, I’m taking the day off work for it, and I will be SO embarrassed if I come back the next day having failed. But mostly, it cost $265 to apply to take, and another $250 for a review course. If I pass, I get reimbursed. That’s a big incentive. Get Cleo back…
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It’s been a week, and I love my new job. I wake up thirty minutes later in the morning (still 5 a.m., but at least I don’t have to see the number 4 anymore), I catch the bus five minutes from my house, and sleep or read on the way in. The building I work in is brand new. I have my own mobile phone while I’m there, with a number specific to me, which is very convenient when waiting on phone calls from doctors and such. The people I work with obviously like each other and I’ve already started to become friends with someone my age. They’ve even started planning their Thanksgiving luncheon; I’m bringing mac and cheese. I…
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