Currently In October

I have been trying to write this post for over a week now! I miss blogging so much, and I want to get back into it. But I have to continue getting my life under control before I’ll have the energy and enthusiasm that I did before. In the meantime, I’ll be here when I can.

Current Book(s): I started reading Waiting For Daisy a couple of weeks ago and I’m still only about halfway through. That doesn’t mean that it’s not good, it’s just that I haven’t been in the mood to read recently. With only three months left to reach my goal of 50 books this year and 19 books to go, things are looking bleak.

Current Playlist: Lately I’ve been listening to the classical music station in the car when I drive. It helps keep me calm while also distracting me from my anxious thoughts.

Current Shame-Inducing Guilty Pleasure: There are things I’m ashamed of, like how showering every day has become more of a guideline, but none of them are really pleasures.

Current Color: I suppose I’m into grey right now. Grey skies mean less heat, and I have the most comfortable grey sweater that I can’t wait to be able to wear.

Current Drink: Just water and V8 Fusion, baby. Here’s to getting healthy.

Current Food: First I decided to go mostly vegetarian, next my nutritionist advised me to go gluten-free, and finally I discovered that I’m most likely lactose intolerant. Food is a difficult subject right now, but there are two things that will always be part of my diet, and that’s eggs and beans. Yum.

Current Favorite Show: I’m so proud of myself that I finally caught up with Gossip Girl. Now I can follow along on Twitter when the new shows come out. I haven’t been able to do that in years!

Come to think of it, THIS could be considered my guilty pleasure.

Current Wishlist: I don’t mind having to cut corners, but I hate having debt hanging over my head and I wish I could make it disappear. We will get there, it’s just going to take a few years of hard work.

Current Needs: I need to relearn how to handle stress, and I need to rediscover the happiness I used to have. It’s there, I know.

Current Triumphs: Here is where I attempt to be positive! I’ve dealt with some things at work recently that I am proud of myself for, but I can’t talk about yet. I played a soccer game this weekend and I didn’t feel like I was going to die, so that must mean my running efforts are paying off. The house isn’t a wreck at the moment which is kind of a miracle. And I have successfully cut back on the number of responsibilities in my life so that I can function like a human being.

Current Bane(s) of my Existence: Ugh, depression. Or is it hormones? Or some kind of chemical imbalance? Or just stress?

Can this be true, please? Because I would totally cheat on my gluten-free diet for it.

Current Celebrity Crush: None at the moment, but check back next month once I’ve seen a few more movies. :)

Current Indulgence: Ice cream, even though it makes me sick. How sad!

Current Blessing(s): David times a thousand. As soon as he was able to walk again he started helping me do all the things that he can, like chores and housework and taking care of the dogs. Plus, he keeps me hoping and stays positive when I don’t think I have it in me.

Current Outfit: Some comfy lounge pants and my favorite t-shirt ever. At my 10-year high school reunion this past weekend I saw that I was wearing it in the class panoramic picture and that made me happy.

Current Excitement: Awhile back I thought that it would be possible for David and I to sneak away to Kansas to visit friends and attend my college’s homecoming this coming weekend, so I asked off of work for three days in a row. Then David convinced me that a trip right now just isn’t possible for us, but the bright side is that now I have a long weekend coming up!

Current Link: Haven’t been spending much time online lately, so I don’t have anything to share. But feel free to pass along anything you find that is happy/funny/inspiring!

Happy October. :)