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Tag: School

  • bad and good

    The bad:

    >The aforementioned friendship troubles. No updates there yet.
    >The relay team that I’m supposed to be in charge of is falling apart.
    >Finding time to fit in class, work, clinical, studying, soccer games, book club, applying for jobs, running, and relationships.

    The good:

    >I love David, and he loves me. Our one-year anniversary is on Sunday.
    >Being a nurse is great, and so is my clinical in the surgical ICU.
    >Things to look forward to: anniversary, birthday, Over the Rhine concert, Valentine’s Day.
    >Cleo is the best dog ever, and I am her favorite person of all.

    Just a quick update because I don’t have much time this week.

  • trying to respond

    I am such an avoider of conflict. It’s really not that great of a characteristic. I am having a very hard time dealing with this situation with my friend. The conflict was thrust upon me, and now I have to respond. The last time we spoke I wasn’t prepared, and things were left in a bad place. Since I didn’t know when I would see her again, I ended up leaving her a letter to read. It was honest and at the same time caring, but I’m worried that she will just see it as judgment and intolerance and miss the love. I’m doing what I can, but it’s hard.

    In other news, I have my first clinical tomorrow. A 12 1/2 hour shift in the surgical ICU. It’s going to be a long day. I hope I like it.

    And finally, for a break from this melancholy, check out my good friend Carmen’s video blog, One Leg Duck. This week I am a featured character, filmed on our recent trip to New Mexico. It’s a silly short little thing.

  • Back To School Encounter

    It was back to school today, my last first day of school. We had a really good lecture about cellular anoxia and hemodynamic monitoring, but I will spare you the details of that. Instead, let’s review the following conversation that I had with one of my classmates.

    ***

    E: So did you get anything really great for Christmas, did you get engaged or anything?

    Me: Not yet.

    E: Sucks, doesn’t it? I was sooo disappointed.

    Me: Oh, were you expecting it?

    E: Yes, and he gave me a ring, too! In front of his whole family. I was so excited, all ready to say yes, and when I opened the box it was this ugly ring, and it was missing something called a diamond. I was so mad I wanted to cry. His family probably thought I was so rude. And then later I went into the other room and I did cry. I mean we’ve been together forever, and I don’t want to just keep dating and then have him dump me for some 20-year-old, because that’s what will happen!

    Me: Wow, that’s not fun.

    E: So I keep dropping all these hints. I found the exact ring that I want, and I keep leaving the catalogue lying around where he’ll see it, open to that page. The other day I asked him if he were to buy an engagement ring, which one would it be? When he showed me I told him it was the ugliest thing I had seen, and I would return it if he gave it to me.

    ***

    And this was after she showed me all these pictures of her and him making out in front of the Mormon temple in Salt Lake City, where she says she wants to get married (even though she’s not a member of the church). My thoughts? I’m so glad Boyfriend David and I are on the same page with our desires and plans for our relationship.

  • Making The Grade (Or Not)

    I took the final in my pediatric nursing class this morning. This is a class that I disliked the entire way through, and which had a reputation for being very difficult. I got a low B on the first test, freaked out, and then worked really hard the rest of the semester and pulled off low A’s on the next two tests and a perfect score on a group presentation. The way things stood, if I got a 91 on the final this morning, I would get an A in the class.

    Well, the grades were just posted, and I got a 90.

    Talk about frustrating to a perfectionist like me.

    As soon as I found out my grade I went and vented to my roommate, Amanda. One of the things I said to her was, “I worked so hard in this class and made A’s on everything except the first test. But my classmate made C’s on most of her exams, got a B on the final, and ended up with a B in the class also. Our grades are the same. Why did I even try so hard?”

    She responded, “But that’s not why you worked hard. You did it so you could learn, and look back and say that you did your best.”

    Feeling dejected and guilty, I hung my head and said, “You’re right.”

    After a moment’s pause she said, “But that’s not what you want to hear right now. So if you want, we can go toilet paper your professor’s house.”

    That’s what friends are for.

  • things i want to do instead of studying right now

    1. Sleep
    2. Eat
    3. Shop
    4. Crossword puzzle
    5. Read
    6. Play with Cleo
    7. Make Christmas cards
    8. Clean
    9. Download random applications for my computer
    10. Blog…oops. I gave in.

    One more final to go. It’s tomorrow at noon in case anyone wants to say a prayer.