take two

December 16, 2010

Let me tell you one thing that’s really on my mind these days.

My husband David and I were finally able to have an IUI in early November. It was two years coming, a rough two years during which we experienced miscarriage, depression, major surgeries, and financial difficulty, but they were also two of the best years of my life because I spent them with David.

Everyone who deals with infertility has a different experience. I feel extremely blessed that I am able to get pregnant at all, but our journey hasn’t been easy. Although we haven’t had to undergo countless procedures, we have been forced to wait what seems like a long time because of one obstacle or another.

Two weeks after the procedure we couldn’t stand it any longer and took a home pregnancy test. It was positive. Then we took another one. Positive. I think I was kind of in shock. David was ecstatic, and he kept asking me, “Why aren’t you happy?” Of course I was, and am, happy, but the first thing I felt was scared. My miscarriage was the hardest thing I’ve ever gone through, and it’s still fresh on my mind. I really, really, don’t want that to happen again. For the first couple of weeks I noticed that I mostly tried not to think about it at all, because I didn’t want to get my hopes up.

At the same time, I don’t want to live in fear. And I don’t think it will help the situation at all to be constantly worried. So my intention has been to remain positive, and to think about this pregnancy as being successful. It’s hard some days, but now? At nine weeks, after two successful ultrasounds showing one strong heartbeat?

I’m excited.

Posted in: motherhood, infertility, motherhood, motherhood, pregnancy

Comments on take two

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    From Stephany:

    AH! I’M SO EXCITED FOR YOU!! (I read a tweet to you from Chelsea and was thinking this was what it was about!) Seriously, I can’t contain my excitement!!!!!! :) You guys deserve this so, so, SO much. What an awesome Christmas gift!

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    From Marlena:

    I KNEW IT!!! I saw your exchange with Chelsea on Twitter the other day and I just had a feeling. Sending you SO MANY positive vibes and prayers from across town. I’m teary eyed, so immensely happy for you love!

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    From San:

    oh my goodness, I can’t tell you how absolutely excited I am for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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    From Taryn:

    So so excited for you Kathleen!! I’m so glad things are going so well!!

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    From Kyla Roma:

    OMG!! Congratulations, this is amazing!! <3 <3 <3

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    From OurLittleAshley:

    Aww, yay! :) Excited.

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    From Cio:

    :D !! July!!!! So pumped!

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    From Callina:

    So happy for you! Can’t wait to

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    From MelissaOklahoma:

    CONGRATS! Praying for a healthy and happy pregancy, delivery, and ultimately baby! :)

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    From Holly:


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    From Elizabeth:

    Oh! I am so excited for you two! You’ll definitely be in my thoughts as things go forward. I know it’s a challenge to let go of the fear, but it sounds like things are going so well!

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    From Amy --- Just A Titch:

    I’m totally having happy tears for you. Congratulations.

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    From Cait:

    Congratulations! That is wonderful news.

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    From Ashley:

    Congrats to you both!!

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    From Megan:

    I had a feeling about this! I’m sending positive energy your way, dear! I’m beyond excited for you and your husband!! :)

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    From Uncle David:

    Wonderful news Kat. I suggest “David” as a boys name in homage to your brother, husband and uncle. As for girls I’m partial to Susan or Sue or Suezanne.

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    From Mediumcrazy:

    Yay!!!! Congratulations!!!!!

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    From Jill:

    Wow, wow, wow! Congratulations! That is very exciting! Here’s to a happy and healthy nine months!

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    From Tabaitha:

    Congratulations! I had a feeling about this back in November, but didn’t want to ask. I’m so beyond thrilled for ya’ll. Praying for a smooth and healthy pregnancy!

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    From Rae:

    Congratulations! I am glad that you are not only pregnant but also have some reassurance so you can start to enjoy it. Prayers for you and your baby. :-)

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    From Chelsea:

    So happy for you, Lady!! Enjoy the ride! And SLEEP all you can throughout the pregnancy!!!!

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    From Lauren from Texas:

    Well you already know I’m excited & have been! :) Love you so much & will be praying for you and the baby every step of the way!

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    From Amber from Girl with the Red Hair:

    Oh Kathleen! I am so happy and excited for you! You deserve this sooo much :)

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    From AshleyD:

    This is so exciting! Congratulations!!

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    From Emily:

    CONGRATULATIONS! Oh I am so excited for you guys :) I hope your feeling good! And we are so close, I’m 10 weeks!! I’ll be praying for you that everything will go okay!

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    From Megan:

    I wondered when you were going to make the big announcement.

    Love you so much, my friend.

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    From Laura:

    I am so excited for you! Praying for you, David, and the sweet baby!

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    From Allison Blass:

    I am BEYOND excited for you! Congratulations! :)

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    From LG:

    Yeowwwwww!!!! So EXCITING!!!!!!!!! :0)

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    From Marchar Stagg:

    David and I are so excited for you!!! We’ve been praying for you every day . . . that this will be a normal pregnancy and that your baby will be strong and healthy and that you would be able to rest in the Lord. Love you, Marchar

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    From rachieannie:

    I’ve been stalking your blog for awhile now, but rarely (if ever??) have commented. Anyways, I wanted to come out of the woodwork on this occasion because that is amazing news!!

    Congratulations to you and David. May your baby continue to grow, grow, grow and may you receive peace that will allow you to enjoy every second of this journey!! So so so excited for you guys!! Babies are such blessings.

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    From Erin:

    Congratulations!!! I am so, so, so happy for you!

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    From Amber:

    Congratulations! I hope everything goes smoothly for you this time.

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    From Stef:

    Congrats! I found your blog through LFT I think and I appreciate you talking about your infertility because I was going through the same thing. After 3 rounds of clomid and 2 IUI’s I’m pregnant too! Congrats again!

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    From steph anne:

    Omgosh, I’m so excited for you two!!! When are you due now, do you know?

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    From Amelia Maddox:

    I am BEYOND excited for you! Congratulations! :)

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    From Chanel:

    This is really great news!! Congrats! Stay positive and stay happy.

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    From Mindy:

    Praying for a healthy pregnancy and peace for you! I wish you and David the very best!!

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    From Jen:

    I don’t know how I missed this post, but I’m so very excited for you! :) Stay happy and healthy, lady!

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