an important week: some thoughts

August 9, 2010

In about thirty minutes I’m going to make my epic return to work, and I wanted to take a second to get a few thoughts down before I go.


One. After not working for awhile I’m wondering, will I remember how to do this? Will I remember how to manage my time, how to do all my skills, will I remember to do all the little pieces of charting that we’re required to do? I’m also wondering, how will people react to me today? After my two weeks off not only did I get a chemical peel that is still in the stages of healing (I know there will be some funny looks), but I’ve also decided to start wearing a lot less makeup.

Two. Tomorrow I go in for an ultrasound to determine whether my follicles are ready, whatever that means. I have resisted the urge to Google the hell out of IUI’s because I don’t want to obsess over it, but it’s still hard to keep calm and think about other things. If all goes well I’ll be inseminated by the end of the week and in two weeks I could know for sure that I’m pregnant. That’s a weird thought. In two weeks the whole thing could have failed and I’ll have to deal with that disappointment. That’s a sad thought.

Three. Somewhere in between working, doctor’s visits, and taking care of my husband and dogs, I intend to keep running despite the heat. I’ve decided to keep playing soccer this fall, and I’m tired of being out of shape. I also miss yoga, so I’d like to start back up with that this week. (See, I have to make decisions regardless of what happens with the IUI. I can’t not play soccer because I think I’ll be pregnant by then; that’s just asking for failure.)


My thirty minutes are nearly up. Here’s hoping my first day of work goes well, and that I can stay awake till the end of my shift.

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Comments on an important week: some thoughts

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    From Nora:

    I hope work does go well for you today!

    I hear you on the wanting to stay in shape thing; I signed up for a 10K and I have to start training this week for it. I’m tired of feeling gross & icky.

    Saying prayers & throwing good thoughts out into the universe for you & David this week regarding the IUI.

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    From Krista:

    Good luck today – once you are there it will all come rushing back to you!

    I hope all goes well with the IUI. On the flip side, you could be pregnant in 2 weeks!

  3. 3

    From Leslie:

    I saw that you already had your first day back! Hope you get back into the groove of things quickly & easily!

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    From Kyla Roma:

    Good luck on your first day back & I hope the appointment about the IUI goes well! :)

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    From Stef:

    Good luck on the IUI, I just had my first IUI on Sunday. I totally know how you feel with the waiting game and not knowing if I should make certain plans or not. Like you, I made them anyway. The IUI was not bad, it didn’t hurt, just a little uncomfort, similar to your yearly exam.

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    From Lauren:

    Praying for you guys…for your IUI to be successful!

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    From Emily Jane:

    I hope everything went well for you!

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