So, yesterday I was feeling reeeaally blah. I felt like my head was in a fog. Maybe it was a hangover from the steak, mashed potatos, salad, and ice cream I ate for Easter lunch and the ham, scalloped potatos, bread, and strawberry shortcake I ate for Easter dinner. Whatever the reason, I was feeling oddly incompetent. I emailed David and told him, “I feel like I am about to make a mistake at any moment and get yelled at.” I didn’t, that I KNOW of, but it was a rough day nonetheless. Today my director came up to me and asked, “Have you heard of the nurse’s gala that’s coming up?” “Yes, I’ve seen the emails.” “Were you planning…
Continue Reading »

When I first went to college, like every kid I was faced with the premature decision of what to do with my life. I was never someone who always knew what I wanted to be when I grew up. I changed my mind a thousand times: from photographer, to singer, to physical therapist, to philosopher, to athletic trainer, to minister. In the end I got a degree that trained me to be a youth pastor, which I didn’t want to be, and another one that trained me how to think but didn’t leave me a lot of (read: ANY) job opportunities. I guess I followed through with it because I enjoyed the classes and the professors, and like most adolescents…
Continue Reading »

It’s Friday, hallelujah, and I want to take a moment to say how grateful to God I am for the way this week has gone. The biggest thing is that my husband David maybe, possibly, hopefully, is on the right track to maybe, possibly, hopefully getting his pain under control. The haziness of that statement is reflective of how I usually feel regarding this whole ordeal, but my goodness, things are looking up! Yesterday morning when I got to work I was feeling very emotional/irritated/sad for what seemed to me like no reason at all. But I think the reason was that I had to give first-time chemo to a very anxious 22-year-old boy who looks alarmingly like my little brother. It…
Continue Reading »