Category: thoughts

  • lent

    ash wednesday

    I don’t come from a liturgical church background, but this year I am observing Lent along with other church holy days. As I get older and discover more about myself and my personality (ISFJ) I have realized that traditions, holidays, liturgy, and observances really inspire me. I’m leaning in to that and hoping to bring it into my home as well.

    I thought and thought about how I should personally observe Lent. Some things I considered giving up were sweets, social media of some form, caffeine (that was just a passing thought), and TV. I also thought about adding in some things: exercise, family time/activities, Bible study.

    This is what I settled on: I am going to do daily Bible readings from the Book of Common Prayer, and I am going on a personal spending freeze.

    The thing I wanted to change most was to have daily Bible study time. I am currently doing one with my church, but it is too in-depth for me to find time for it every single day like I want to. But just because our sleeping situation is less than ideal and I’m not able to wake up before my kids, that doesn’t mean I can’t find time to read a short Scripture passage and say a prayer. Instead of choosing a daily devotional, I’ve chosen to follow the Book of Common Prayer because I want to feel connected to the Church.

    I also wanted to make some sort of sacrifice and give something up. I decided to give up all personal money spending for a few reasons. For one thing, I’ve just spent too much lately. It hasn’t been frivolous; I have been buying some high quality clothing items that will be a great help to me, for example. But as I’ve been spending, it becomes easier and easier to spend, and I noticed my attitude trending toward the needing of certain things to feel adequate. So I’m cutting myself off!

    A few exceptions: I’m allowed to use gift cards, or replace any empty toiletries or essential makeup items. But that’s it. I’m not going to be buying extra things for the kids either, but this is not a family spending freeze.

    I’d love to hear about your relationship with Lent, if you observe it and how, if you’d like to share!

  • ten things on a friday

    liam hiding

    one.
    I’ve had a cold for the past week. It’s been terrible! I wish I could just hide under some pillows like Liam is here. I rarely get sick so when it hits me I’m unprepared. I actually did take one day off work (which was lovely) but the rest of the week I’ve just been powering through.

    two.
    I’m in major binge-mode with The Good Wife. I go home after work and watch an episode before picking up the kids because I can’t go a day without it. I’m only at the end of season one so I’m happy that I have plenty of material ahead of me.

    juniper kitty

    three.
    On my sick day I made boots and sewed two dresses for Juniper Kitty. I love her and am now ordering Basil Fox for Liam because he loves it just as much. I was very, very intimidated to sew the dress because I have never done clothing of any kind before, and I had heard that doll/children clothes are harder because they are smaller. I’m pleased to report that it was much simpler than I expected and now I’m even tempted to sew myself something.

    four.
    The last part of Juniper Kitty’s outfit is a knitted cowl, and that is what I’m working on now. I had to re-learn how to knit (I used this website) but it came back to me pretty quickly. I think I’ll be done with the cowl by the end of the weekend, and it’s the perfect time of year to fall in love with knitting again.

    in the heart of the sea

    five.
    Also making me happy is that I’m reading a great book, In the Heart of the Sea. It is the true story that inspired Melville’s Moby-Dick (which I loved). I hear they are making a movie out of it, which is exciting. Although I never actually get around to seeing the movies that I want to see, so I don’t know why I’m excited, but I am.

    meredith in the driveway

    six.
    On the not-so-exciting side of things, Meredith is going through one of her difficult phases again. My thoughts are that she is very sensitive to sugar and lack of sleep, and we have given in to her demands too often for the sake of ending a tantrum. It’s time to not give in, and that process is ugly. But we are trying.

    seven.
    The countdown to Christmas using books has not been going too well (see above). There were too many tantrums happening so I put the books away. I love the idea of this tradition, but I don’t think I’ll try it again until the kids are more mature and have a regular bedtime routine (in their own beds, and they can go to sleep on their own).

    eight.
    And I am back to considering how to get both kids to sleep in their own beds. I’m wondering if a bunk bed would be fun for them. At the very least I think it’s time to turn the crib into a toddler bed; maybe Liam will sleep okay there and we can get Meredith into the twin bed.

    it works hair skin nails

    nine.
    I’m interested in the supplements that people take. I currently just do a prenatal vitamin, but I want to add Omega-3. I heard that it can help people who identify as highly sensitive, plus all of its other benefits. I think I’m borderline for HSP (according to this test). Also, although my current haircut is cute and I wanted to try it, it’s too short for me. I feel better about myself when it’s shoulder-length and I can put it into a ponytail. That’s why I’m going to try the It Works Hair Skin Nails supplement which helps hair grow faster and thicker (which is great because mine is so fine). Everyone seems to love it.

    ten.
    What are your weekend plans? Tomorrow we are going to a Christmas show with all the cousins followed by lunch and gift exchange. Sunday we just have church stuff. I’d like to make a little more progress with Christmas shopping; I don’t have much more to go but it’s coming up quickly. After all these years of living in Houston I still find that it sneaks up on me when it’s in the 80’s during December. Yesterday evening we went to the park in shorts and t-shirts.

    Happy Friday, friends!

  • what i’m for

    what i'm for

    Today I’m linking up with my friend Brittany to share some of the things I’m for. This is an attempt at positivity, even though I for sure don’t always feel it! But today I’ve had a decent night’s sleep and a scream-free morning, so I’m feeling pretty good. :)

    Coffee. Listen, coffee makes me a better person. I really don’t mind that my body is completely dependent on it at this point.

    Doing what works for you. This is my parenting philosophy. Although I have my ideals, life gets in the way and I’m all about surviving however necessary.

    Lullabies. Bedtime is hard for us right now, but a sweet song makes it easier. Sometimes a well-chosen lullaby can even calm a horrific tantrum. Here is my current favorite to sing to the kids.

    Going to church. Even if I don’t feel like it. Because that’s how communities are built and I know mine has been carrying me in prayer.

    Wrestling. I mean this figuratively, but I don’t know a better way to put it. Did you know that Israel means “wrestles with God”? I am always amazed to remember that is what God named his chosen people. He wants us to wrestle with him; He doesn’t expect us to just accept the faith of our parents or our culture. I’ve been doing a lot of this recently, and have had my faith challenged, then strengthened.

    These are just some of the things on my mind lately. This will be a recurring series, so share your own post and see the others here! Or, just share in the comments. :)

  • what i learned in october

    what i learned in october

    I started strong with writing down what I learned in October, but it got kind of stressful toward the end and I didn’t end up remembering to keep up with it! So here are the few random things I learned over the past month.

    Pop culture trivia

    Am I the last one to know this? Kirk Cameron and Candace Cameron Bure are siblings. I learned this from the Popcast.

    Fairy tales

    Also from the Popcast, I learned some of the details about the dark origins of fairy tales. Suuuper creepy stuff.

    Random medical stuff

    This is probably going to be a recurring category in my life because of my job. From working in the pre-op department this month, I learned that “talus” is an ankle bone and “cicatrix” means a scar.

    Dark matter

    From an interview on the Happier podcast, I learned that there is such a thing as dark matter which is matter in the universe that doesn’t interact with light. So weird.

    Sororities

    From my Voxer friends, I learned the history and origins of sororities and how they work. I went to a college that didn’t have them, so I really had no good idea what they are actually like.

    Gilmore Girls

    Like the rest of the world, I learned that my all-time favorite show Gilmore Girls is coming back with four encore episodes via Netflix! I’m planning to take the day off work and binge-watch it whenever it actually does come out.

    Personal Growth

    Several things were (are) causing me anxiety recently (still), and I re-learned that I’m a work in progress. I don’t recover from stressful situations well and I definitely take it out on the people around me without intending to. That’s not a fun thing to learn over and over again, but at least now I’m taking steps to better myself.

    Stay tuned for the books I read in October, and a new blog series coming soon!

  • what i learned in september

    what i learned in sept

    Today I’m linking up with Emily Freeman to share the random things I learned over the past month. It’s been fun to write down these tidbits and I think I’ll keep it up!

    Car inspection info

    I had to get my car inspected this month, but it needed some work done first. So I learned that they won’t pass you if the “check engine” light is on, and you can’t have a spare tire on.

    I also always forget that you have to show proof of insurance to pass inspection, and I didn’t have a hard copy. But I learned that they will accept a digital copy if you just look it up on your phone and show them. So yay!

    Tubal ligation reversals

    I work with a gynecologic oncologist, and his nurse was telling me all about patients she’s had who have had their tubal ligations reversed. (A tubal ligation is having your “tubes tied.”) First of all, I didn’t even know it was possible to have that reversed. And secondly, I learned a lot about why someone would want to have that reversed apart from regret. She told me stories about women who had been sterilized unknowingly and without consent due to race or poverty.

    Aging and end of life

    Like I mentioned in my reading recap, I read the book Being Mortal and I learned a TON about the aging process and options in America for handling old age and end of life. I think the most important thing I took away from the book were the questions you should ask when presented with a difficult decision regarding treatment of a severe or terminal illness.

    1. What is your understanding of your condition and its possible outcomes?
    2. What are your hopes or goals?
    3. What are you fears?
    4. What outcomes are unacceptable to you? What would you be willing to sacrifice and not?
    5. What would a good day look like?

    Monster energy drink symbolism

    So, my husband is into conspiracy theories. Apparently this isn’t a new one, but of course I had never heard of it before. Apparently the M in Monster looks like three Hebrew number vavs put together, which is 666. Their slogan is “unleash the beast,” and there is a cross in the letter O which gets inverted when you drink it. Okay, I’m not saying the drink is Satanic but it’s pretty interesting!

    Interventional radiology

    This month I trained in the interventional radiology department at our hospital, where they do minor procedures. So I learned how they prep patients, what all types of procedures they do, and the flow of the clinic.

    Berenstain Bears & the Mandela Effect

    This is another conspiracy I learned about from my husband. Apparently, so many people remember these beloved books being spelled with an E, BerenstEin Bears, that they are convinced there is an alternate reality or a glitch in the matrix. The Mandela Effect is when a large number of people have the same false memory, as in when Nelson Mandela died, many people were convinced that he had already died in prison.

    Random medical stuff

    I learned that the blood pressure medication Cozaar can be given for Reynaud’s Syndrome. I learned what patients with insulin pumps should do when they are having surgery, since they can’t eat or drink. Usually, patients are instructed not to take insulin at all. But in the case of a pump, they are to check with their endocrinologist who may ask them to leave it on up until a certain point.

    French bulldogs

    This breed of dog, while super adorable, actually would not exist on its own. They cannot breed naturally because the male’s hips are too narrow to mount the female. I learned this because the wife of our new doctor at work is a vet, and he was talking about her preferences in animal breeds.

    Hormones

    One big thing I learned about myself is that it appears my natural cycle of hormones are coming back and are very much going to affect me in an emotional way, and not a good one. I also saw my OB/GYN and she explained to me that while nursing, estrogen is low and progesterone is high and what changes that produces in the body.